Moving forward again...

So after the last failed cycle things were definitely up in the air. We had exhausted our last frozen embryos, and money was definitely an issue. It seemed as though we were done. There wasn't much option...

I really don't know all the details, so I can't add too much information, other than the Dr. and a huge generous donation put us back on track to transfer again. We were ecstatic. Hope was not lost.

The plan was to possibly transfer in December/January. Maria and my cycle were pretty much already synched and it seemed very possible we could move forward. Until my period never showed, and never showed, and never showed. Hmpf. Finally in early January I started on Provera. Last week, I finally started the monster of an AF built up for almost 2 months!!!

And yesterday ... I had my baseline appointments. My blood work came back with my estrodiol number in good range and my lining right where they expected it!! Today was my last BCP and Saturday will be my first delestrogen shot!!

Maria should be starting next week and then we're off!! Our estimated transfer is February 11 or 12th!!!

We are stoked about the new cycle. It will be our first attempt at fresh AND with the advances made we will be able to PGD as well. So this will, by far, be our best shot!!!

This has been a long road and the continued support is overwhelming and so very appreciated. There are days when it all feels daunting and I feel fortunate that Maria and I can balance each other and pick each other up when we need it. Sometimes hope my feel bleak, however Faith remains in tact! If you pray, please pray God's will is on this cycle. Let Him guide the way and reveal His plan!! Good thoughts and support are what have carried us through!!

Here we go again!!

Update

So sorry not to update sooner. Time is just flying by ... And, as those close to me know, I tend to hide when sad/stressed...

Our cycle was a negative. We ended up having six matches to Hailey. Of the six, two didn't look good at all, one had already collapsed (too grown), and three were good. So we transferred all three. I ended up getting some positive tests early the next week, however they faded and disappeared. Beta was officially negative.

We do not really know what's next or where we go from here. I am sure IF another transfer can happen it won't be until after the new year. For now we can enjoy our families, the holidays, and the love that surrounds us.

Please continue to send prayers for precious Hailey and her family.. .. ..

UPDATE

Yesterday we finally got the word from the clinic ... all systems are a go!!! With a week until transfer my lining is a 9.5 and my estrogen levels were good! We bumped my shots from .3 to .35 cc's and tomorrow we'll start daily progesterone shots. I hope I get used to them soon. For some reason I am having such an issue with doing them this cycle. They seem really difficult!! Some kind of mental block I think. Oh well, they will get better. They have to ... I have 10 more weeks to go!! ;)

Sooooo transfer is Wednesday, the 28th, at 3:00 p.m.!!! I fly in that morning and out the next afternoon. I am so excited. I have such an awesome feeling about this cycle. It WILL work.

See, it's the anniversary of my very first transfer ever, with the triplets. SUCCESS!!

OH and I had the most amazing experience a few weeks ago that made me BELIEVE this is going to work...

I was at my chiropractor appointment then had my massage... A little background, my massage therapist is VERY spiritual and truly touched by God. He has said things to me that I needed to hear that he had NO idea what he was talking about. So during my massage it happened again... He asked me, "What do butterflies mean to you?" I got the chills. I instantly thought of our Hailey Joy, and the butterflies representing new life. I told him that and asked why. He said, "I just saw a vision of a butterfly landing on you and such peace". OKAY, super chills!!! At that moment I felt peace. As though God was saying new life and peace were coming to us. So I have held to that and BELIEVE God is in this and THIS IS IT!!!!

SO needless to say I am bouncing in my seat excited for next week. We will have healthy matches, a super transfer, and a POSITIVE pregnancy!! I claim and own it NOW!!! Wootwoot, 6 days away!!!

ONWARD!!

Yesterday I got the results of this weeks labs and ultrasound. All systems are a go!! The results all looked great. As with all the cycles I've had we upped the delestrogen to .3 cc's. Last nights shot went well. And only TWO WEEKS until transfer. Technically 13 days now!! Today we'll get the airline tickets and I lined up the sitter last night. I am sooooo flippin' excited. I feel soooo very good about this cycle!!! Whoohooo!!! Baby making here we come!

IT FEELS SO REAL FINALLY!!!

We are CYCLING!! I took my last bcp on Friday and AF wasted NO time in showing up!! ((after 8 weeks or so can you blame her??)) So I am officially cycling!! Wednesday will be my first shot. I am anxious and excited all at once. The first shot is always the hardest, but then you just get in a rhythm. I am so stoked that we are on our way, though. I feel soooo good and optimistic about this round. This WILL be it. In just 23 more days WE'LL BE PREGNANT!!!!!

Almost time?

I will say, I will be soooo happy to be off BCP pills!! It's been MONTHS or so it seems. And we need to ward off my period until at least the end of the week so I'm on two pills a day now. AND still spotting. So I know it's going to be awful when it arrives...

Good news is just two more days until our baseline ultrasound and bloodwork is done. Then if all systems are a go we'll be offiicially cycling again! Whoohoo.

MAYBE??!!

So we do have a new date. Well we had one and now it's changed again. Hence the "maybe".

This next transfer is so unique and therefore comes with a lot of consideration and the need to KNOW things will be done right. They will be testing the embryos that created Ryan & Hailey and transferring from that batch. The hang-up, per say, is the embryos were frozen on Day 5. So the testing procedure is pretty new and experimental still.

This October is the big convention, meeting-of-the-minds for reproductive specialists. So AFTER that we will transfer. Our date as it stands now is October 28, 2009. I have a special love for this day ... it's 3 years to the date since transferring the triplets! AND Ryan & Hailey were transferred on October 31st.... which, possibly, could be our first BFP (since we'll be doing a 6d transfer). I just feel that these are great signs and we have faith this will be IT!!!

So as it stands I'm still on BCP's for a few more weeks and we'll start early next month. Here's hoping all goes as planned!!!